I have always been careful how I used the term “viral” when it comes to social media, but my colleagues and I were pleasantly surprised when one of our recent films, Eye of the Beholder, was chosen as a Vimeo Staff Pick, got 280,000 views (and counting), and was also picked up by Upworthy.com and the Huffington Post Canada. I was especially ecstatic because I had somehow managed to balance the responsibilities of motherhood with my work on the script for this amazingly rewarding collaborative project. I was also able to use my experience taking my daughter outdoors as inspiration for the film. You can watch it here on adventurousparents.com.
Once I was through the first week of bliss with my daughter, the realities of my new body sunk in. I had spent a number of days in bed recovering from the birth, and otherwise didn’t venture out of the house until about Day 6. On that day, I walked about a block before pain turned me back. Though I was able to walk farther and faster as each day passed, I was discouraged by my reflection in the mirror and my inability to really move. My daughter brought me so much joy, but I felt that my body had betrayed me. I longed to run, to feel my heart pumping, to feel sweat on my back, and my feet hitting the pavement. I longed to feel lightness again. Instead I felt heavy, swollen and slow.
My discouragement went on for the first month until, funny as it sounds, I remembered I had just had a baby.